Those pictures on the walls

Anxiety is building. Kind of as if I am riding the Superman ride at Six Flags and I'm going up the first climb and I'm just staring down at the ground, freaking out that the ride is going to break and I'm going to crash down. It never seems to end, I continually ride slowly up the track.
Waiting, one of the worst things to experience in the world. Tick tock, every second passes by, each one slower than the last. So here I am, like I have been all day, refreshing email, checking my phone for phone calls, waiting for a response. Getting false hopes, being fooled by email that doesn't matter at this moment, phone calls from Tess while we laugh up a storm after I explained to her my situation. Oh, the joy it has brought my day, this anxiety. I think I'm holding up okay, just waiting. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Testing my patience, building my patience.
I am just hoping that soon, I will be over this first drop and to know that the ride isn't going to break. That I will enjoy the ride and know that whatever happens, happens for a reason. That is the path I am going to take even though I am not yet able to see it. Life truly is like a roller coaster, a very interesting one.






lovelovepatience

Pack up, don't stray.

My nose is leaking. I find that term to be more appropriate than "running" because I barely even run, why would my nose?

Anyway,
There's not really too much to write about at the moment. I'm just kind of living life. Oh, but the new Britney Spears CD came out and I love it. Everyone seems to make fun of me or say "I guess we all have our guilty pleasures" as if it's wrong of me to like Britney Spears, but I do not feel that I am "guilty" for it. I am innocent and proud. haha, okay, anyway.

I wish I wasn't allergic to cats, or that I had allergy medicine. Then my nose wouldn't be leaking and my eyes wouldn't burn or swell up when I was around them. I think sometime this upcoming week I'm going to go get allergy medicine from my doctor so I can be A-OK. I heard Allegra (or whatever that allergy medicine is) works like a charm, so hopefully the doctor can prescribe me some of that.

"I will go Lord, send me." -Starfield
I am shouting that at the top of my lungs it seems. We'll see what God has planned in my life.

I want some paint and a few canvases, so I can well...paint pictures of the sort. I should add that to my Christmas list! Indeed I shall (:

I saw a couple of really great paintings this past Wednesday at Art Walk, they were beautiful. These people have talent. Some people, including myself at times, look at some of the art and say or think, "Oh, come on, I could do that." The thing is, even if we could make the same beautiful art as these people selling it, could we do it with the same passion and love? And even though we COULD do it possibly, we don't. We just sit around claiming we can do anything and everything yet never make an attempt to even do so. That's our problem with a lot of things it seems, I suppose some might call it "human nature," I think it's more of a "greed, pride, and egotistical" sort of thing. It's like in The Republic by Plato, we should do the task we are set to do and let others' do their tasks. I know that I often have trouble with correcting others whether it is in the way they stir the pot, the way they do a certain dance move, the way they solve a math problem, or the way they're living their life. It seems that I try to play the overseer when that's not what I am. I am a mere piece in the puzzle of life. I am working on this, though. I am also working on making my willpower even stronger. You can do it if you want to, too. All you have to do is say to yourself that you're going to do something, then actually do it. For example, if you say you're going to study before going out, then do that. If you say you're going to start saving money, then save money, and if you say you're going to wash your car as soon as you get home, do just that! It seems so easy, but for some people, like myself, it does get difficult at times. So I am going to strengthen my willpower! I am stoked. Meaning I need to go wash my car since I told myself I would do that today. haha.

Have a great day, all. Sorry this post is so random! (:





lovelovenonsense

What's your name? Gary. Dairy? Gary.

"We call him Lactose."
"Yeah, my friends call me cow juice."
Oh, the conversations that happen at Raglands are the best.

Anyway;;

Ever wanted to help make a change but didn't know how?
I have an answer for you. :)
Toms Shoes has set a goal to be able to give away 30,000 shoes to kids in Ethiopia in 30 days this holiday season. Now you may wonder, "Okay, so how does that allow me to help?" Simple answer, really. For every pair of shoes (or any of their items) that YOU purchase, Toms gives a pair of shoes to a child in need. Great cause. But now some of you may be wondering, "Why do they need shoes?" and/or "What if I don't want slip on shoes? Those just aren't my style." Well, I have answers for both of those concerns as well. First off, they need shoes for many reasons, one in particular is this foot disease called podioconosis. This is boils upon boils on their feet and legs, eventually making them diabled. After these people are disabled, often times they are looked down upon or pushed out of society since they can no longer walk or work. That isn't very good as some of you may have noticed. So a very easy way to prevent this is to wear shoes. Podioconosis is spread through the soil and the volcanic ash in the soil. Shoes really do help. And for those of you concerned about the shoes "cramping your personal style," Toms Shoes also has bags, tshirts, hoodies, and gift cards that you can send to others so that they can buy shoes or other Toms products. They have things for toddlers to grown men and women, the variety is nearly unbelievable. So at least go check it out, spread the word, and help in this awesome cause.

www.tomsshoes.com










lovelovetoms

Anywhere you go, Anyone you meet.

I ain't givin up quite yet, I've got too much to lose.

Pulling strong, living life. Happily ever after.
Is that the life I'm longing for?
Indeed it is and it is the life I currently have.
I have a life that is full of joy although not free of stress or hardwork.
I keep busy, I stay happy, I look above, I hold tight.
Family, Friends, God, Toms, everything I need is there, is here, is all around me.
I am blessed, I am unique, I am carrying out my purpose.






This holiday season, Toms set a goal to be able to give 30,000 pairs of shoes to children in Ethiopia to prevent Podoconiosis. You can help! Just visit www.tomsshoes.com and make a purchase, whether it be for shoes, a bag, a hat, or a shirt, any purchase made results in a pair of shoes going to a child in need. Gift Toms this holiday season, you can give giftcards via their website as well. Spread the word, spread the love, spread the Toms.





lovelovetoms.

Our days might be slipping away

Emptiness exists, and yet at the same time, the feeling of a near full capacity exists.
Two complete opposites battling inside of me, can they both exist?
Philosophy would argue that to be impossible, could it be that I'm breaking the barriers of the possible, or is it that I'm just confused?
No.
Nothing.
I just want to escape.
A miniature escapade, a ginormous adventure.





For the first time, I feel less alone.
And for the first time, I can call this home.
It's our last time to say goodnight, don't say goodbye.