Sunday, December 28, 2008

I'm gonna speak the words that need no form.

Over the past year or so, I have changed. I have had my ups and downs, my failures and I have had my times of success. I have fallen, stumbled, tripped, and bruised. I have risen, healed, mended, and stood tall. I have made mistakes and I have forgiven myself for those. I have run away from truth, I have been unfaithful. I have begged for mercy, I have surrendered it all. I have learned, I have gained wisdom, I have overcome. I cannot hide from anything, anyone. I am living for Truth, Mercy, Love, Loyalty. I am living for God. I have been, I have made errors, but I will continue to worship the Lord, my God, for all eternity. I will learn to be content as Paul did. I will keep my focus on the God who saved my life. He continues to lift me up, He continues to love me, no matter what. I may gain new people in my life, but I will lose those people, I have gained God and I will never lose Him. I am in love with God and that is the only love I know. I want to show the world the love of God. I am going to do great things in His name, I know it, I can feel it. It's already begun. Each year, it seems that something new and exciting comes up, something for me to serve Him in an even greater way than my everyday life. I am blessed. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. I love my God for this. I love your God. I love our God. I love the God. I love God. I am going to continually grow closer to Him. I have stumbled, but I am going to get right back up and continue this awesome journey. Life is so much more than unpredictable. I am so much more than replaceable. He is my all in all. Forever and always.

btw--Next week (:


We don't need a map and you can throw your phone away.

What do you say, we leave for California.
If we drive all night, we can make it by the morning.
And no one has to know if we decide to go, what do you say, we leave for California.
-Metro Station


Next week. Wierd.

btw, I think I use too many commas (:


Thursday, December 25, 2008

She's got it all figured out.

Merry Christmas All!

btw, I'm in awe that Little Jenny Humphrey and Cindy Lou Who are the same person, I love it!


Saturday, December 20, 2008

So I'll stand with hands high and heart abandoned

"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength."
Philippians 4:11-13 NIV

I want that. I am going to strive for that.
I love my Savior. He is my all in all.


Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I whisper all these secrets to a blank page.

0:10-0:14 and 0:55 are the times you can see me. Check it.
March 3, 2009.


Thursday, December 11, 2008

I am more than you know

Streetlights and open roads.
I am more than a face stuck living in one place.
So call me California, call me what you will.
Cause I am bigger than this place and so far from alone.
I don't believe in your hate, cause these stars are going to fade.
-Thriving Ivory

Anticipation: Over.
At least for the time being.
I am definitely looking forward to the rest of this ride.
Oh, the joy of roller coasters, especially Superman (see the previous blog if you are unsure as to what I'm talking about). Not seeing what is coming next, just experiencing pure bliss and happiness. You only have two choices, either to hate the ride and be afraid, or to enjoy every moment of it, no matter what loops and curves come next. Getting over fears, moving full speed ahead.


Those pictures on the walls

Anxiety is building. Kind of as if I am riding the Superman ride at Six Flags and I'm going up the first climb and I'm just staring down at the ground, freaking out that the ride is going to break and I'm going to crash down. It never seems to end, I continually ride slowly up the track.
Waiting, one of the worst things to experience in the world. Tick tock, every second passes by, each one slower than the last. So here I am, like I have been all day, refreshing email, checking my phone for phone calls, waiting for a response. Getting false hopes, being fooled by email that doesn't matter at this moment, phone calls from Tess while we laugh up a storm after I explained to her my situation. Oh, the joy it has brought my day, this anxiety. I think I'm holding up okay, just waiting. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Testing my patience, building my patience.
I am just hoping that soon, I will be over this first drop and to know that the ride isn't going to break. That I will enjoy the ride and know that whatever happens, happens for a reason. That is the path I am going to take even though I am not yet able to see it. Life truly is like a roller coaster, a very interesting one.


Friday, December 5, 2008

Pack up, don't stray.

My nose is leaking. I find that term to be more appropriate than "running" because I barely even run, why would my nose?

There's not really too much to write about at the moment. I'm just kind of living life. Oh, but the new Britney Spears CD came out and I love it. Everyone seems to make fun of me or say "I guess we all have our guilty pleasures" as if it's wrong of me to like Britney Spears, but I do not feel that I am "guilty" for it. I am innocent and proud. haha, okay, anyway.

I wish I wasn't allergic to cats, or that I had allergy medicine. Then my nose wouldn't be leaking and my eyes wouldn't burn or swell up when I was around them. I think sometime this upcoming week I'm going to go get allergy medicine from my doctor so I can be A-OK. I heard Allegra (or whatever that allergy medicine is) works like a charm, so hopefully the doctor can prescribe me some of that.

"I will go Lord, send me." -Starfield
I am shouting that at the top of my lungs it seems. We'll see what God has planned in my life.

I want some paint and a few canvases, so I can well...paint pictures of the sort. I should add that to my Christmas list! Indeed I shall (:

I saw a couple of really great paintings this past Wednesday at Art Walk, they were beautiful. These people have talent. Some people, including myself at times, look at some of the art and say or think, "Oh, come on, I could do that." The thing is, even if we could make the same beautiful art as these people selling it, could we do it with the same passion and love? And even though we COULD do it possibly, we don't. We just sit around claiming we can do anything and everything yet never make an attempt to even do so. That's our problem with a lot of things it seems, I suppose some might call it "human nature," I think it's more of a "greed, pride, and egotistical" sort of thing. It's like in The Republic by Plato, we should do the task we are set to do and let others' do their tasks. I know that I often have trouble with correcting others whether it is in the way they stir the pot, the way they do a certain dance move, the way they solve a math problem, or the way they're living their life. It seems that I try to play the overseer when that's not what I am. I am a mere piece in the puzzle of life. I am working on this, though. I am also working on making my willpower even stronger. You can do it if you want to, too. All you have to do is say to yourself that you're going to do something, then actually do it. For example, if you say you're going to study before going out, then do that. If you say you're going to start saving money, then save money, and if you say you're going to wash your car as soon as you get home, do just that! It seems so easy, but for some people, like myself, it does get difficult at times. So I am going to strengthen my willpower! I am stoked. Meaning I need to go wash my car since I told myself I would do that today. haha.

Have a great day, all. Sorry this post is so random! (:


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

What's your name? Gary. Dairy? Gary.

"We call him Lactose."
"Yeah, my friends call me cow juice."
Oh, the conversations that happen at Raglands are the best.


Ever wanted to help make a change but didn't know how?
I have an answer for you. :)
Toms Shoes has set a goal to be able to give away 30,000 shoes to kids in Ethiopia in 30 days this holiday season. Now you may wonder, "Okay, so how does that allow me to help?" Simple answer, really. For every pair of shoes (or any of their items) that YOU purchase, Toms gives a pair of shoes to a child in need. Great cause. But now some of you may be wondering, "Why do they need shoes?" and/or "What if I don't want slip on shoes? Those just aren't my style." Well, I have answers for both of those concerns as well. First off, they need shoes for many reasons, one in particular is this foot disease called podioconosis. This is boils upon boils on their feet and legs, eventually making them diabled. After these people are disabled, often times they are looked down upon or pushed out of society since they can no longer walk or work. That isn't very good as some of you may have noticed. So a very easy way to prevent this is to wear shoes. Podioconosis is spread through the soil and the volcanic ash in the soil. Shoes really do help. And for those of you concerned about the shoes "cramping your personal style," Toms Shoes also has bags, tshirts, hoodies, and gift cards that you can send to others so that they can buy shoes or other Toms products. They have things for toddlers to grown men and women, the variety is nearly unbelievable. So at least go check it out, spread the word, and help in this awesome cause.